ben poole sez Typing this is hard.

it was a line of thought *something* like this one that led me to ask my audience, (all ten of them) a few random questions.

basically what this boils down to is like many of us, ben has a great need to be creative. to which of course his excellent site attests. julian's site also springs merrily to mind, especially as he has ruminated here and there on why he does what he does, er, blog-wise anyway.

for me, my problem isn't that i despise what i am doing at work. i have a great boss, and i could care less what OS i'm using (sorry but its true, mostly), and i get to tackle techie problems in whatever manner i choose, as long as i can do it within the notes context.

hehe, that last one took me a little getting used to. but i did take this notes dev job after all. and i've come to rather enjoy even the notes client development.

*ducks*

actually i really don't have a problem. or, the problem i have is a good one.

in between raising a family and working full time, i am working on a novel. i still get a little twinge of who-do-i-think-i-am typing that. but sporadic self doubts aside i am having a blast doing that. i am somewhat hopeful that my days as a developer may be numbered. not because i don't enjoy doing it, i do. i really don't have anything to complain about. things on that front just keep getting better and better. but if i could do anything in the whole wide world, it would be writing novels. and maybe screen plays. but mostly novels.

i'm daring to hope. :-)

in the meantime i continue developing applications. thank god i enjoy doing that. it makes it easy to take the zen approach, you know, where you convince yourself that you are satsified with everything all the time.

also, this quote from zawodny, quoting fast company (via ben's above referenced post):

"They thrive by focusing on the question of who they really are -- and connecting that to work that they truly love ( and, in so doing, unleashing a productive and creative power that they never imagined )."

i can't say i have agreed with anything more than that statement. releasing creative power, whether at work or in a side project makes everything better. releasing creative power is a journey of discovery in and of itself.